Tuesday, April 21, 2009

hhhhhmmmmm........

I don't know where to begin, or what exactly I want to post about, but I just need to journal to express my feelings. Needless to say it has been an interesting week. Not too much going on externally, however, internally my mind hasn't felt rested in a week!  Lots of things running through my mind; plans to make, ideas to form, birthdays to plan, cleaning to do, and decisions to make are just to name a few. I have felt an overwhelming feel of the Spirit and the fullness of the gospel this past week. Struggling with answers and finding peace and realizing Heavenly Father isn't very far away. Feeling very humbled.  I attended our stake relief society conference last Saturday. I spoke with a friend just before that and she told me, "just wait, you will feel like every talk given will be directed to you and helping you find answers." That is definitely how I came away feeling. The messages shared were just what I needed to hear, and helped me open up my heart and listen to the Spirit more. 

On top of everything I have been dealing with emotionally, my cramping hasn't improved at all and seems to be getting worse. When I am in pain, I get really irritated and ornery and very short tempered, which my kids and hubby don't appreciate very much. ( I don't blame them.) And, I can't get in to see my doctor until the 30th, which seems like a really long time. So, I am venting now and trying to find a way to deal with the physical pain other than narcotics. So not fun.  

However, I did have a great time at my Zumba class this morning. It is so much fun. I can't move my hips like a Latina, but I can sure pretend! My in laws would be proud! :-)  Not a pretty sight but it makes exercising so much fun!  Our teacher even threw in some hula and hip hop to round it off. Such a great morning. Now if I can just shake the aching pain....... 

5 comments:

Alicia said...

Jess! Sorry you're achy. Besides narcotics, hot baths help me out... and it helps relieve a little bit of emotional stress too. :) Thinkin' of ya!

Rachel said...

I am so sorry to hear you are still carrying around all that pain. That is awful-I hope the doctor can help you. I wish I could help...but I will see you soon. Love ya!

Jen said...

Good luck Jess! Sometimes the only word that comes to my mind is "endurance". It's not very comforting, but it helps me focus when things are difficult. I hope things get better for you soon!

Reeve Family said...

I am glad that you were able to find peace at your meeting. I am glad that little comment helped. I hate telling people stuff like that. I am always afraid that it won't be right. But I know Heavenly Father loves us and wants us to succeed. Especially when He is the one giving us the tasks. Love you and keeping you in my prayers.

The Burninghams said...

Oh dear! It is awful to be in pain. It affects every aspect of your life. I got in a car accident 13 years ago and I have never been the same. I really feel your pain.
xoxo